My life is so lack of focus suddenly. Will be on hiatus till i find the true meaning of my existence. It's just one of those days!

I usually dislike techno song, finding them a bore. but this one caught me totally off.

My sunday is spent waking up late, some gb'ing and reading SPI for the rest of afternoon. Spooky but I am hooked. Here goes my original plan of evening jog and some downtown shopping.

Will soon be packing up my bag and getting my fat ass out of here for fresher (salty) air and a sunnier life!

Last friday during my calculus, i saw 'chaos' (one of the gb guild member) in RED T-shirt presumably some house tee. He is taller and better looking (better-built) than he seems to be in friendster's photo. And the point i want to say is that I could passed by him TWICE without him noticing me that I'm the guy whom he alway calls 'chiobu' and who has been playing gb with every night.

And today, I could never believe who i saw today! It's our guild's 'Flirty King'. MY, does I sound bad? Afterall, he is quite a nice dude, just that I find him too flirty! I was at an agency, my head down, intensely filling up the same set of questions with the same answers for umpteen times. Just as I was clipping the pen back to the board, my head cocked to the side abit and I caught sight of someone damn damn familiar. Split second later, i realised who this person was and i quickly stood up and turn my back toward him and handing in my form. Don't ask me whether he saw me anot cos i can't remember but I'm absolutely sure that it's him. All along, he had been sitting down BESIDE me with two other gals who i'd forgotton to take a look. I might have seen staccy and his 'Dear'. LOL

Anyway, it's quite a consoling after this incident cos now i know NOT only us put nicer photo of ourselves but even the guys(except the first guy i mentioned above) do that too! Haha. Now you should know why I try to avoid him face to face! Who doesn't want to leave a nice impression? Anyway should i confront him later at night? Did he realise it was me when the agent shouted out my name to come forward? Let just see. Hope he doesn't ask me anything queer tonight.

-Added-
I think I had made him angry. He really didn't recognise me and i intend to keep it that way.

To my sis, thanks for the cake and to my bro thanks for the sigg bottle though i doubt i get the chance to use it and to my mum who suffered all the great pains delivering a gigantic 4kg baby 22 years ago and lastly to all my well wishers for remembering my big day!

My sis's brain must have gone haywire! She bought 3 big boxes of mousse cakes!!! I'm suffering from mousse overdose now and still not quite finish with these. Mum wants me to ate them all by tml so that she can have more fridge space to put in other grocery.

Hm...anyway i miss my birthday treat. I was discussing with my parents in the morning that we shall have a fabulous mongolian dinner tonight to celebrate and guess what? I totally forgotten about it and saunter off to book evening tickets for "50 First Dates" You should go and watch it if you're a sucker for romance! Oh boy. Dad was home by 5pm to get ready. And my sis was angry with me when i stepped into the home late. In the end, we have to make do with the catering food. Shuck! Any cure for Goldfield's syndrome?

I signed up for gmail despite the warning from my sis that it's for spam purpose that's why 1000mb of space. Anyway glad that no one has used my name yet to register.

Happy bday to myself. Sobsob...one year older leh!

Oh my, nicolle highway collapse! We were shopping at Heeren during late noon when yy's dad left a voicemail telling her that to avoid the area. We didn't realise the seriousness of it despite Ms C's mum (who happen to share the same birthday as me) told her that a thailand hotel has collaspe. It's amazing on how rumour spreads and evolves. Only until i reached home just in time for 6.30pm chinese news. Currently one dead body is discovered and 4's still missing. Heard from fpod that the suntec was completely blacked out and the people thought it was terrorism.

After exam at 11+am, we went to try out our graduation gown. For our faculty, the color combination of our cloak is exactly the same as the theme color used in NUS logo. Haha. My first impression is that how come the texture and the color seem so alike to the funerals clothes which we wore last year. Creeps. Plus my friends was discussing to buy pants of same color. I almost pangz(overturn)...Anyway, we had fun trying out with different cape and owl hat infront of a long mirror. Ms C even mis-wear the master hat until she looks like feng fei fei (taiwan 80s idol singer, also my new idol and my mum. Did i even reveal that i almost was named after her?)

After our last(?) pgp's tomyam noodle, we made our way to cineleisure. Our first time watching movie together and YY and my first time watching a korean horror movie. (Don't even ask me how i find about The Ring cos till now I don't even see a complete one.) So we three timid mouse decided to go for "Into the mirror" Never did i know that Ms C with her bloated gut watches horrors covering her entire face and hugging to her dearest bag for security

...play gb now...to be continued.....

1 more day to my last paper!
2 more days to my birthday!
7 more days to my chalet!

Things i gonna do after the last exam with preference in asc order:

Beauty sleep
Exercises
Shopping
Clubbing
Take up piano, guitar and dance kluzs
Scout for better (free? i have a change of mind) webspace provider
New blog layout
Have our (ME & MY) very own internet radio broadcast and club webby. (Now then i realise the wonder of winamp) --- putting this off for now.
Target GB Wand and get hooked off
Find a decent job with at least $2000 monthly pay
Find a decent boyfriend with at least $4000 salary

I wonder why i put job hunting second last? I still couldn't get used to the idea of working after 17 full years of studying. Feel like going back to lectures for next july.

The last one is j/k or else i think i'll be courting spinisterhood!

Right after watching 7pm's "Mum with love", I thought i could start straightaway a night long study on cosmetic material for tomorrow's exam in the evening. Within 2 min, drops of perspiration appears below my nose despite my fan's is at full blast. The heat has been intorable today especially i was sleeping in a 20 degree celsius room for the whole of the afternoon. The temperature difference is so immense that i started to feel sick.

Decide to cool down into my mum's room where my brother is still napping away in cool air. The sky's already dark. So i was there standing in the dark for sometime enjoying the coolness. Out of the sudden, i was feeling very romantic. Staring out of the window are vertical rows of corridors lit dimly with warm light. Everywhere got that orangey The trees are swaying lightly and a jazzing tune was already resonating in my mind. I was like standing there at the same spot for a whole of 10 min before snapping out of the trance.

Just as this entry ends with the last word, i'm back to my notes and before that sweat already forming all over. Guess i have to bath again.

Type "miserable failure" into google searchbox. See the first displayed on the list.

My soc friend who did a project with me was staring at my msn photo for like 5 min before deciding to ask me who am I? Is my picture so deceiving to that extend of beyond recognisable? I'm so sad after what she said. So now you know why there are so many chiobus in friendster but you don't see that much on the street? This is the answer to this thread in fp.

How do i know that i too old for study? When my eyes skimming through the lecture notes for the first 5 minutes, i start dozing off in my chair. Guess a tornado is brewing on my right hemisphere of my grey soon just becuase of too much resting.

I'm suffering from chronic headaches for two days and it badly hampers my study scehdule for next week's exam. Now, I practically sleep early at 1am and wake up late during the noon. I guess my brain couldn't adjust itself from my previous 45 min sleep per two consecutive days to more than 8 hours sleep on the next day. Don't you think i'm ill-treating myself? I never realise that until yesterday while gunbounding, my guild fellows are all telling me to at least have some 1-2 hr rest in between. I guess I'm a JIT workaholic.

What have i read? Two Chapter for calculus for entire week. Oh my god. How worst can it get? No one ever end up like me. I the extreme. I'm a goner. But i got used to such situation. Leopard's spots never change and it sometime makes me wonder whether i can make it to honour if i have the determination(&brain&perservarance) of bf. Shrug. No use thinking of it.

To motivate myself. I have just made a pact with MY, that she will buy me an avatar if i manage to finish 10 chapter of perfume notes. That's half of the course yet alot. Currrently i still stuck at chapter 1. Hm....I have to pia continously...will update at midnight to see how far i go.

Yesterday, i dreamed three weird dreams after falling fast asleep despite the five loud beeps of incoming sms from my handphone on my pillow. In my first dream, I was a bride wearing a short stylish bridal skirt. And I was in a chauffered car which was supposed to be fetching me to Changi airport. But i never know why the airport is so near my house and instead of the airport tower, i see a long stretch of long green field instead. We were actually lost and my darling called frantically to ask about my whereabout, afraiding that i may run. Blah blah...when i finally reached the place, it was a restaurant that looked practically like MacDonald, (If my wedding dinner is there, i might as well be a suicidal bride) I don't remember the bridegroom's face but I know he cares alot about me. But all the time, all in my mind is that why am i getting married just right after graduation. And is my choice correct? And how come am i making this stupid decision without any dating experience and getting to meet more guys thereafter? i excused myself and went to the toilet. I still recalled the waitress guiding me to the restroom. I couldn't tell my darling that i can't marry him. I couldn't bear the uncomforting thoughts anymore and i ran away from the place. During my escape, YXY saw me and i try to hide from her. I dunno why in the hell she appears in my dream. I ran and ran and ran in my short lovely skirt and high stiletto heels until I woke up at 5.45 for a toilet break. I continue sleeping and proceed on to my second dream.

I can't remember much about this. All i know is that i suppose to drive another car while my father's car is full with relative. My cousin is with me and this is a two seater long shape maroon sport car that shaped like those tiny jet plane.
It was prolly exciting but i don't remember what happen thereafter.

The last dream before i'm awaken by my dad's whisphering in the next room. I was a german guy and quite nicelooking one. Heehee. I have a girl friend who is a Jew and we are in the Nazi era of time. We both are studying in a school and my girlfriend stay in the hostel. I recalled myself rushing into my girlfriend's room helping her to lock the window and drawing the curtain, fearing that she might be seen by the nazi soldiers. We hugged together for one last time and suddenly i off in a field wearing a nazi military clothes combating. I was dodging the handthrow bombs as well as throwing the bomb at the enemies. There i sat high on the other side of the wall and watch sadistically at the ball of fire automcatically surrounding enemies.

I never knew why i got that third dream. What have i been thinking and what am i supposed to derived from it. I knew for my first one, my mum finally relenting her highest piority rule, and i'm starting worrying about my first date (see no boyfriend yet think so far for what!!! Any friend reading this entry should slap me hard upon seeing me and tell me to get real) I was just afraid getting attached to a wrong guy given that I don't have any prior experience

My second dream actually resulted from my guilt. I got my license for 1 year more but still didn't get down to really driving around singapore. I don't want to waste my money forgotting the driving technique and I'm hoping to be drive my mum around for this coming holidays. Really envy people who gotten their own car.

This is a very disoriented entry. Guess i impatient to get back to my study and get my avatar as a reward

Now i only sleep once per two days. And it just some five to six hour rest. I think my brain gonna has blood cot for overloading. But I shall still treasure the last few week of my student life before declaring myself as a unemployed adult on my 22th birthday. Sad ah...

It's so strange that i kept dreaming of this bigeyeguy appearing at the booth for consecutive nights though i can't remember what happen thereafter.