Wednesday, 14 May, 2003 0:08 AM
Can't think of any suitable heading...
Forgive me for not updating my blog regularly. These days, i'm either busy or being too lazy. Last sunday is the 7th day ever since the death of my Ah Gong, supposedly the day when my ah gong's spirit returned home for a final time according the taoism belief. One of my aunts said that she heard a loud 'boom' when she got up to the toilet in the middle of night. Similar mysterious situation occured during my Ah Ma's 7th day (who died in Feb).
Last saturday when we went to collect the bones at Mount Vernom, i saw a butterfly fluttering above my dad who was carrying the urn to the car. Strangely, i was there outside for a period of time and noticed no appearance of such moving entities. The place there was so quiet and 'motionless'. i kinda believe that the soul of my Ah Gong must have lie on that butterfly's body and then entered the car as my dad did. When the car drove off, the butterfly flew off to elsewhere.
Time really flies fast: two week before, his last words to me is to study hard and graduate with pride. He then still looked and sounded as if he can last a few couple of weeks, at least till May. (Previously, i heard my dad said that Ah Gong asked when i wouldl graduate and he wished to attend the ceremony. Sadly, his wish is never reached.) Still, he passed away peacefully on a monday morning after lapsing in subconscious state during the pervious night.
Looking back, i realise that i lose both my grandparents within a short time. It's a great blow to my dad and i have been quite emotionally unstable for the past few days. Too much for me to accept, i guess, the facts of life.
I have been thinking of Death, the evitable final phase of life. Coincidently, there is a topic on this in flowerpod forum. Someone asks, 'Do you fear Death?' I admit i do, very much. I attribute it to the fear of unknown. No one knows for sure whether there is an afterlife after death. What become of us after our last breath? From several sources as well as experiences, i gather we do not stop just there. We become soul who will continue 'living' in the netherworld. Erm scary isn't it. But come to think of it, soul does not possess the ability to fear since a soul can't think or reason like humans do. Einstein shared the viewpoint: There are still energy left in the brain, not known what it becomes, after one dies. Since energy can neither be created nor destroyed. So these unaccounted energy could be an answer to afterlife. Oh well, i could have better explained why i arrived at my opinionated belief but that would take hours of organising and typing. Nah, i'm too lazy. Afterall, i'm not buying you to believe me, right?
Wanting to know what I been up till this week? Accompanied my dad to meet clients at Zoo but somehow wondered off with my mum to see monkeys. Hee Hee. Saw Ah Meng. Whoo, she's really old, a great grandmother, isn't she? Despite slower movement and larger body mass, we can see that she is still a dowager in her family: They have to get up if they find themselves blocking Ah Meng's path. Will post up photos later.
Can't think of any suitable heading...
Forgive me for not updating my blog regularly. These days, i'm either busy or being too lazy. Last sunday is the 7th day ever since the death of my Ah Gong, supposedly the day when my ah gong's spirit returned home for a final time according the taoism belief. One of my aunts said that she heard a loud 'boom' when she got up to the toilet in the middle of night. Similar mysterious situation occured during my Ah Ma's 7th day (who died in Feb).
Last saturday when we went to collect the bones at Mount Vernom, i saw a butterfly fluttering above my dad who was carrying the urn to the car. Strangely, i was there outside for a period of time and noticed no appearance of such moving entities. The place there was so quiet and 'motionless'. i kinda believe that the soul of my Ah Gong must have lie on that butterfly's body and then entered the car as my dad did. When the car drove off, the butterfly flew off to elsewhere.
Time really flies fast: two week before, his last words to me is to study hard and graduate with pride. He then still looked and sounded as if he can last a few couple of weeks, at least till May. (Previously, i heard my dad said that Ah Gong asked when i wouldl graduate and he wished to attend the ceremony. Sadly, his wish is never reached.) Still, he passed away peacefully on a monday morning after lapsing in subconscious state during the pervious night.
Looking back, i realise that i lose both my grandparents within a short time. It's a great blow to my dad and i have been quite emotionally unstable for the past few days. Too much for me to accept, i guess, the facts of life.
I have been thinking of Death, the evitable final phase of life. Coincidently, there is a topic on this in flowerpod forum. Someone asks, 'Do you fear Death?' I admit i do, very much. I attribute it to the fear of unknown. No one knows for sure whether there is an afterlife after death. What become of us after our last breath? From several sources as well as experiences, i gather we do not stop just there. We become soul who will continue 'living' in the netherworld. Erm scary isn't it. But come to think of it, soul does not possess the ability to fear since a soul can't think or reason like humans do. Einstein shared the viewpoint: There are still energy left in the brain, not known what it becomes, after one dies. Since energy can neither be created nor destroyed. So these unaccounted energy could be an answer to afterlife. Oh well, i could have better explained why i arrived at my opinionated belief but that would take hours of organising and typing. Nah, i'm too lazy. Afterall, i'm not buying you to believe me, right?
Wanting to know what I been up till this week? Accompanied my dad to meet clients at Zoo but somehow wondered off with my mum to see monkeys. Hee Hee. Saw Ah Meng. Whoo, she's really old, a great grandmother, isn't she? Despite slower movement and larger body mass, we can see that she is still a dowager in her family: They have to get up if they find themselves blocking Ah Meng's path. Will post up photos later.