Woke up 15min earlier this morning as boss wants everyone of us to be on the dot and he will be leading us as an example. Guess what? He still wasn't there when i reach the doorstep at 9.01am!
Despite sleeping so early yesterday night, i was still very legarthic. Even my colleague notice i'm yawning alot. I am simply a sleepy head. Yawn all the times no matter how long i sleep. Some pathways must have been blocked causing insufficient oxygen to reach my half-function brain.
Decided to take my chicken soul to occupied myself on board the train as i know i will jolly well dwell on that lost love again. Forced myself to read. Yet Couldn't help thinking why must end in that way, why is he acting like a jerk asking me to be his special friend giving him special treatment while he only treat me like a friend. You don't ask an opposite sex friend to massage, pluck hair, hugging, xxx, ....why can he get over our rs that fast, when did he actually start to be unsatisfied and unhappy with our relationship, am i really that bad in his mind etc... just then i blindly flick to a page when a handwritten leaflet is stuck in between pages. I pick up the note and read. It is to a guy who been thru some trumatic incident the day before the note is written and the nameless sender was trying to encourage him to look up and be brave, even no one understand, god will understands very well what he been thru and will help at the right times. It's very encouraging note, is it destined to be for me when i at my pit of my life? Somehow, My spirit boost even though i not christian! To keep the note or not, i dunno. The book's still here with me long overdue. i dun feel like returning the book even, it's a book picked by him at orchard library when i told him i wan to read chicken soup stories. He likes chicken soup too.
I think i have become more of a harasser. i called him once, sms twice when i thought of him. I know it's not right to do, but love force you to be illogical and sometime out of control. I know he's bad, he lies, he hit me not once but twice, he fool my feelings, he fool around with that bitch, but i just couldn't hate him to the extent that i want to block him outta my memory. I keep thinking of all these, the good and the bad especially when i'm alone. I couldn't ask my friends to accompany me everyday to try get over it, they have their life too.
Anyway, looking on the bright side, i have signed up for Amore classes. Pay a hefty 226$ for power packages. Yeah, finally have something to look forward to on weekend. Think i also wan to learn roller blading too. Broke now. but salary finally come in! Gonna take my dear sis to watch House of Fury tml evening.
Despite sleeping so early yesterday night, i was still very legarthic. Even my colleague notice i'm yawning alot. I am simply a sleepy head. Yawn all the times no matter how long i sleep. Some pathways must have been blocked causing insufficient oxygen to reach my half-function brain.
Decided to take my chicken soul to occupied myself on board the train as i know i will jolly well dwell on that lost love again. Forced myself to read. Yet Couldn't help thinking why must end in that way, why is he acting like a jerk asking me to be his special friend giving him special treatment while he only treat me like a friend. You don't ask an opposite sex friend to massage, pluck hair, hugging, xxx, ....why can he get over our rs that fast, when did he actually start to be unsatisfied and unhappy with our relationship, am i really that bad in his mind etc... just then i blindly flick to a page when a handwritten leaflet is stuck in between pages. I pick up the note and read. It is to a guy who been thru some trumatic incident the day before the note is written and the nameless sender was trying to encourage him to look up and be brave, even no one understand, god will understands very well what he been thru and will help at the right times. It's very encouraging note, is it destined to be for me when i at my pit of my life? Somehow, My spirit boost even though i not christian! To keep the note or not, i dunno. The book's still here with me long overdue. i dun feel like returning the book even, it's a book picked by him at orchard library when i told him i wan to read chicken soup stories. He likes chicken soup too.
I think i have become more of a harasser. i called him once, sms twice when i thought of him. I know it's not right to do, but love force you to be illogical and sometime out of control. I know he's bad, he lies, he hit me not once but twice, he fool my feelings, he fool around with that bitch, but i just couldn't hate him to the extent that i want to block him outta my memory. I keep thinking of all these, the good and the bad especially when i'm alone. I couldn't ask my friends to accompany me everyday to try get over it, they have their life too.
Anyway, looking on the bright side, i have signed up for Amore classes. Pay a hefty 226$ for power packages. Yeah, finally have something to look forward to on weekend. Think i also wan to learn roller blading too. Broke now. but salary finally come in! Gonna take my dear sis to watch House of Fury tml evening.
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