Holy shit. My ie couldn't access blogspot, causing me waiting to blog for the entire evening, thinking that maybe the website is down. Till i gave up and use firefox to try and realise its my ie's attitude problem. Duh! It's just jealous of firefox, my new browser. Anyway i still prefer to use IE.
Hey hey finally found someone who's into water sport! He's been to wake boarding and holy shit, it cost $250 ++ for speed boat and coach plus hour rate charge. It's an expensive sport. Think I could plan just one time for this sport. Jet skii is another alternative that i looking forward to. Expensive too but affordable for like once in 3 months. Rate is like $40-50/hr (@Batam).
Recently I found myself infatuated with Hoobastank. I have started listening to Perfect 10 few days back and happened to listen to this song closely at my lowest point of my life, with no one to talk to. I sat in the office crying to myself. My colleagues beside and behind me were touring with their girl/boyfriends in Thailand, so no one actually caught me bleeding tears. This song happens to be first on the top 100 charts on Perfect 10 too. Hm...the lyric at that point reflects what i wanna say to him. I initially thought of recording me singing this to him and burn it on a cd and put it at his doorstep. He should be grateful i didn't carry out this silly plan. My singing simply cannot make it. Hey isn't this sort of sweet things done by guys usually? Am i becoming more like a guy?
"The Reason"
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
~
Hm..the mtv doesn't seem to reflect the meaning of the lyric. Any linkage that i seem to overlook? I realise I have changed. I'm now more attuned to lyric than before. Is it because i have become more "soapy"?
Anyway it seems damage has been done, and didn't i detect the diminish in his love for me? Sometime i do feel i being cheated and make use of. (=> mean implies) If he need time to reconsider whether he wants to be with me => he's not sure he will like me as much as before or whether we have future => then why did he still get so close to me. => when i leave his house, it is as if i'm only his long distant friend and didn't he want to know what i been doing all these days => Does he still have feeling for me => NO OF COURSE => i feel i'm being cheated of my feeling! I'm being treated like a toss-doll. Use and throw! Damn hurts! I doubt he could answer this series properly. Should i just give up and quit at this point?
No matter what, I hope this sunday, he should make a right decision for us. Pointless to go on when you know you couldn't like him/her more anymore. Just like what my guy friend told me, "Easy to get into relationship, hard to maintain". How true it is!
I have 2 mini web projects on hand which i do not know whether to accept anot. It could boost my portfolio and earn some pocket money. I really need some money now. But I lack the time. Shall wait for the verdict this sunday and decide.
Hey hey finally found someone who's into water sport! He's been to wake boarding and holy shit, it cost $250 ++ for speed boat and coach plus hour rate charge. It's an expensive sport. Think I could plan just one time for this sport. Jet skii is another alternative that i looking forward to. Expensive too but affordable for like once in 3 months. Rate is like $40-50/hr (@Batam).
Recently I found myself infatuated with Hoobastank. I have started listening to Perfect 10 few days back and happened to listen to this song closely at my lowest point of my life, with no one to talk to. I sat in the office crying to myself. My colleagues beside and behind me were touring with their girl/boyfriends in Thailand, so no one actually caught me bleeding tears. This song happens to be first on the top 100 charts on Perfect 10 too. Hm...the lyric at that point reflects what i wanna say to him. I initially thought of recording me singing this to him and burn it on a cd and put it at his doorstep. He should be grateful i didn't carry out this silly plan. My singing simply cannot make it. Hey isn't this sort of sweet things done by guys usually? Am i becoming more like a guy?
"The Reason"
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
~
Hm..the mtv doesn't seem to reflect the meaning of the lyric. Any linkage that i seem to overlook? I realise I have changed. I'm now more attuned to lyric than before. Is it because i have become more "soapy"?
Anyway it seems damage has been done, and didn't i detect the diminish in his love for me? Sometime i do feel i being cheated and make use of. (=> mean implies) If he need time to reconsider whether he wants to be with me => he's not sure he will like me as much as before or whether we have future => then why did he still get so close to me. => when i leave his house, it is as if i'm only his long distant friend and didn't he want to know what i been doing all these days => Does he still have feeling for me => NO OF COURSE => i feel i'm being cheated of my feeling! I'm being treated like a toss-doll. Use and throw! Damn hurts! I doubt he could answer this series properly. Should i just give up and quit at this point?
No matter what, I hope this sunday, he should make a right decision for us. Pointless to go on when you know you couldn't like him/her more anymore. Just like what my guy friend told me, "Easy to get into relationship, hard to maintain". How true it is!
I have 2 mini web projects on hand which i do not know whether to accept anot. It could boost my portfolio and earn some pocket money. I really need some money now. But I lack the time. Shall wait for the verdict this sunday and decide.
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