Today is one fine day to sleep in. But I woke up early, unable to fall asleep and therefore, waited for rain to fall. Finally got up at 9am to prepare for piano class.
It might just be another saturday for me to rest from one whole week of work. However I was restless. I couldn't wait for Sunday to come. It could once and for all, blown or return of happiness. Still he treated me just like a friend. Of course, again and again i was very hurt.
I choose to stay at home the whole day after checking out my bank account after class. Very broke. Maybe next sat I could be walking on Orchard Street, sharing the generous amount of $1 ice-cream with him again. Chewing positive thought is what keep me from going insane today.
So all the time was spent chatting on msn with others as well as scanning my computer for virus. MSN 7.0 beta was way too cool. I could draw my message and nudge my online buddies if they don't reply!!!
Seeing me at home FINALLY on a saturday is considered something that deserved to be celebrated by my family. Afterall, for the entire six months, i spend my weekends with him mostly. Dad and mum decided to bring me to a famous stall at ang mo kio for its reknown chili crab for dinner. Usually my mouth watered at the thought of spicy food, but the humugous chili crab failed to interest so. It died unworthy. Poor thing. I guess they do noticed my unusual quietness. I just couldn't bring myself to jovial self, simple couldn't have the appetite. But i did try to put abit effort in conversation. Was quite touched when they left the biggest part of the poor crab for me. Love my family forever! (My 'forever' really means it)
There i go. Weepy again. Now i do know breakup could be very painful. It's definitely not for play play business. Whenever i feel the pain and hurt, all i want is just to slice the scissor blade across the wrist and die. It gets so suicidal. Fortunately, my EQ is high enough to tell me this is not the way to deal with it. Sis and friends, don't worry for me too much.
I just hate to know when time can heal me completely. God knows when.
It might just be another saturday for me to rest from one whole week of work. However I was restless. I couldn't wait for Sunday to come. It could once and for all, blown or return of happiness. Still he treated me just like a friend. Of course, again and again i was very hurt.
I choose to stay at home the whole day after checking out my bank account after class. Very broke. Maybe next sat I could be walking on Orchard Street, sharing the generous amount of $1 ice-cream with him again. Chewing positive thought is what keep me from going insane today.
So all the time was spent chatting on msn with others as well as scanning my computer for virus. MSN 7.0 beta was way too cool. I could draw my message and nudge my online buddies if they don't reply!!!
Seeing me at home FINALLY on a saturday is considered something that deserved to be celebrated by my family. Afterall, for the entire six months, i spend my weekends with him mostly. Dad and mum decided to bring me to a famous stall at ang mo kio for its reknown chili crab for dinner. Usually my mouth watered at the thought of spicy food, but the humugous chili crab failed to interest so. It died unworthy. Poor thing. I guess they do noticed my unusual quietness. I just couldn't bring myself to jovial self, simple couldn't have the appetite. But i did try to put abit effort in conversation. Was quite touched when they left the biggest part of the poor crab for me. Love my family forever! (My 'forever' really means it)
There i go. Weepy again. Now i do know breakup could be very painful. It's definitely not for play play business. Whenever i feel the pain and hurt, all i want is just to slice the scissor blade across the wrist and die. It gets so suicidal. Fortunately, my EQ is high enough to tell me this is not the way to deal with it. Sis and friends, don't worry for me too much.
I just hate to know when time can heal me completely. God knows when.
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