i know when he initially go stead with me, he has the mentallity that i will not find his background too low for me. In fact till now, i never. I admire his character (but not all his traits) and almost adore him. Just that i was really angry that time, i decide to use public eye to spite on him purposely when i know i didn't mean it.
I know he not willing to come back to me readily as he still think that i will again find his faults here and there when i in bad mode. that why he say he first find a job then look for a girlfriend( ouch, this really hurts! ). "No money , no talk". Am i really that money minded. When my friends ask how is he going to be my hubby in future, i will tell them that i will wait for him and he will have a stable job and income. If i really look down on him, i would have left him long time ago. Thick head!!! Nevertheless, i will learn to shut my stupid mouth when i in foul mood and its actually in process. I think i really a very bad bad person to do that.
He want me to find a better guy but I refuse! cos i already got him...why look for others. He the unique guy that i wan!
i REALLY hope he can think through and have more faith in me. Since he say he needs time, i will give him time. Good thing deserve to be waited. But i sincerely hope that he will tell me if he no longer feel anything for me. Not that i dunwan to wait. Either way, it will still take time! i rather bleed internally then forcing him down the throat to accept me to make myself happy when he isn't.
One bad thing is he refuse to tell me his feeling, just said that he sick of relationship, and last sun he went mdm wong, he don't even have interest even though he saw some really nice looking ones. DUH....i told him i also tired of persisting and reviving, but i still will continue cos i know LOVE still exists between us!
I know he not willing to come back to me readily as he still think that i will again find his faults here and there when i in bad mode. that why he say he first find a job then look for a girlfriend( ouch, this really hurts! ). "No money , no talk". Am i really that money minded. When my friends ask how is he going to be my hubby in future, i will tell them that i will wait for him and he will have a stable job and income. If i really look down on him, i would have left him long time ago. Thick head!!! Nevertheless, i will learn to shut my stupid mouth when i in foul mood and its actually in process. I think i really a very bad bad person to do that.
He want me to find a better guy but I refuse! cos i already got him...why look for others. He the unique guy that i wan!
i REALLY hope he can think through and have more faith in me. Since he say he needs time, i will give him time. Good thing deserve to be waited. But i sincerely hope that he will tell me if he no longer feel anything for me. Not that i dunwan to wait. Either way, it will still take time! i rather bleed internally then forcing him down the throat to accept me to make myself happy when he isn't.
One bad thing is he refuse to tell me his feeling, just said that he sick of relationship, and last sun he went mdm wong, he don't even have interest even though he saw some really nice looking ones. DUH....i told him i also tired of persisting and reviving, but i still will continue cos i know LOVE still exists between us!
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