i have an entire office to myself today since my supervisor sharing the room was on leave. Of course, this is when i enjoy the luxury of have a huge personal space. Chitchatting on company phone, reading health magazine, playing games on my handphone, taking off the shoes off my feets and swinging, basically enjoying life of "snaker eater" until a call at 6pm when my boss called to check on me(to see whether i left on the dot probably) and i was reminded of a task that is due by tml die die must finish. One thing is i have yet started on it. I was like OMG! but heck care, i still leave after the phone call. Absolutely no mood to stay on in the lonely room.
Have private space is not really a good thing. I thought of him again and again and drop several tears until one cute colleage of mine came in and use the computers there. I hope he didn't catch me crying. That's total embarassing!
After yesterday's conversation, i have sorta straighten up. I no longer have any energy or drive to bring back the love. Absolutely no reason for me to do that anymore. During my bath, i didn't even tear a single drop for him, which is the exit of the cycle ever since the break up. My heart sorta harden.
Ms C was right. If he has me in his heart, he wouldn't have let me go down on my knee to beg him back, not one time but several times. Maybe he was my first, that why he seems special to me and i couldn't bear to leave him.
My sis saw my msn's nick and she offer 50 buck for me to buy my blue blade( a promise he made as a birthday gift) How sweet of her. Comforting that still have ppl around me care for. However i turn down her offer. i really don't have much money to buy myself a blade now even with 50$ sponsorship.
For my 23rd birthday, i just wish i have a peaceful day, have a dinner treated by my sis ( i specify "fish and co" as designated place) and that's it. Another same as before's birthdays, maybe abit sadder. Hm...i also wan to have $1 ice-cream square sold by ice-cream mobile uncle along the orchards road. 10 more days to go...hai...older :(
Shrug...maybe all these drama is blessing in disguise...The hardest lesson i gained is to learn to let go. The past has been archived ^^
my daily schedule for now:
Mon : Jogging
Tues: Relax, play computer, jogging
Wed: hip hop
thurs: Relax
Fri: Jogging
Sat: Shopping
Sun: Gym
Have private space is not really a good thing. I thought of him again and again and drop several tears until one cute colleage of mine came in and use the computers there. I hope he didn't catch me crying. That's total embarassing!
After yesterday's conversation, i have sorta straighten up. I no longer have any energy or drive to bring back the love. Absolutely no reason for me to do that anymore. During my bath, i didn't even tear a single drop for him, which is the exit of the cycle ever since the break up. My heart sorta harden.
Ms C was right. If he has me in his heart, he wouldn't have let me go down on my knee to beg him back, not one time but several times. Maybe he was my first, that why he seems special to me and i couldn't bear to leave him.
My sis saw my msn's nick and she offer 50 buck for me to buy my blue blade( a promise he made as a birthday gift) How sweet of her. Comforting that still have ppl around me care for. However i turn down her offer. i really don't have much money to buy myself a blade now even with 50$ sponsorship.
For my 23rd birthday, i just wish i have a peaceful day, have a dinner treated by my sis ( i specify "fish and co" as designated place) and that's it. Another same as before's birthdays, maybe abit sadder. Hm...i also wan to have $1 ice-cream square sold by ice-cream mobile uncle along the orchards road. 10 more days to go...hai...older :(
Shrug...maybe all these drama is blessing in disguise...The hardest lesson i gained is to learn to let go. The past has been archived ^^
my daily schedule for now:
Mon : Jogging
Tues: Relax, play computer, jogging
Wed: hip hop
thurs: Relax
Fri: Jogging
Sat: Shopping
Sun: Gym
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