I woke up feeling injustisfied. How could he brand me as selfish and broke promise while he guarding his promise to the very end? I messaged him retailating and regret instantly after the second message is sent. Afterall, nothing can be done and will happen. He couldn't turn himself into someone:

-who has more than just mere o'level result,
-who can't stop himself from scolding vulgarities and
-who can control his temper.

Why, why, why. I keep telling myself it already come to an end. He most probably getting on well with so much of his friends around him. He doesn't lack female companionship and why would he bother about me.

I can only sit down here, counting zillions seconds till the time when i can get over it. While i was at orchard, it brought back alot of memories, good and bad. I badly wan to roller-blade with him.

Sometime I relieved that i won't be meeting him anymore and sometime i really do miss him.


Whatever now, i have mixed emotions and turmoils. I decide it better that i don't do anything.

Because i simply do not know how to play god.

Today i have my first taste of cheesecake@nydc and was ever guilty after it.

It not one cheesecake but 2!

Horrendus. God knows how many mile i gonna run tml.