Monday, 10 March, 2003 6:05 PM
A break finally!
Manage to catch a mini-break before another cycle of hectic schedules. Just had my e-commerce mcq test this afternoon. Made lotsa mistakes. Blame the ambiguous lectures notes given.
Finding the weather too hot to settle down comfotably for some academic reading, I cleared my desk instead which has been in a state of disarray for weeks. The red packets at one corner of my cupboard caught my attention. I have opened not a single one of them up to see the amount of money inside. This goat year's not much harvest. Most of mum's side relatives went for holidays while my family got stuck in hot! rainy! hot! Singapore.
Immediately, i know that one pair of slightly bulky hongbaos is from my grandparents. It's been almost 2 weeks since my grandma passed away. Pancreatic cancer, she suffered for 6 months. I still remember the day when i woke up with shock that something foreboding is gonna happened to grandma. That same afternoon, my grandma is diagnosed with cancer. That sunday night when my whole family visited her at NUH in the morning, her conditions took a worst turn. I heard from my father that she prayed to Guanying and other gods to give her 2 more days. On Wednesday (26 Feb), my father called to inform us that she won't last more than 12 hours. We decided to go to the hospital together to pay our last visit during the evening whereby my sister would return from school. We didn't make it. She took her last breath at around 4 p.m.
All along, I did not visit her (except the Sunday's trip when she already don't recognise us) despite the fact that she hospitalised at NUH since the chinese new year and also my school (SOC) is within walking distance to the hospital. My father would ask me whether I want to visit her but i alway pushed it to another day cos I was tied down with the projects and tests. If my mum would have told me earlier (Don't ask me how she know. I'm not sure whether i can tell it here) that my grandma would pass away anytime after the lunar 15th day of first month passes,(ie after the chinese new year) i would have placed more priority on the visit.
My relationship with my grandma is not close. Imagine that I only visit my grandparents once a year. It's Er2 Xi2 Fu3 and Jia1 Po2 issue. I'm not going to talk about this. It would take another entire page. When i was very very young, I used to have sleepover at my grandparents' home, helpout and nap at their stall where they fried Chao2 Guo2 Tiao2 in ABC market for a living. My memory involving my father's side is quite limited. I guess it's the detachment which did not movtivate me to visit her frequently. *A sense of guilt*
Enough about the sad stuff. It has to be a thing of the past. Here's a recent update of me:
Getting all over excited about the voice conference with my friend on Saturday. I was totally surprised at the clarity of my friend's voice over the headphone. Even better than the phone's. The plus factor is that i can talk and be heard even when there's some distance away between the yellowing mic and my mouth. We can even share programs over the net without any delay and problems. It made our online project discussion far more pleasant even though we ended discussion at 5 a.m. sunday morning. (Btw, we used Microsoft Netmeeting.) Pardon us for getting keyed up over such a minor technology. We are a bunch of people who claim to to Computer Science undergraduates but with not much of techno savvy.
I hope this long blog can compensate for my frequent absense. My third phase of software engineering is coming up soon. I forecast that it will be weeks of sleepless night with intense programming and debugging. No 'fraid. I have signed up with phlogger which i can sms-blog to keep my blog alive. It would be up soon.
A break finally!
Manage to catch a mini-break before another cycle of hectic schedules. Just had my e-commerce mcq test this afternoon. Made lotsa mistakes. Blame the ambiguous lectures notes given.
Finding the weather too hot to settle down comfotably for some academic reading, I cleared my desk instead which has been in a state of disarray for weeks. The red packets at one corner of my cupboard caught my attention. I have opened not a single one of them up to see the amount of money inside. This goat year's not much harvest. Most of mum's side relatives went for holidays while my family got stuck in hot! rainy! hot! Singapore.
Immediately, i know that one pair of slightly bulky hongbaos is from my grandparents. It's been almost 2 weeks since my grandma passed away. Pancreatic cancer, she suffered for 6 months. I still remember the day when i woke up with shock that something foreboding is gonna happened to grandma. That same afternoon, my grandma is diagnosed with cancer. That sunday night when my whole family visited her at NUH in the morning, her conditions took a worst turn. I heard from my father that she prayed to Guanying and other gods to give her 2 more days. On Wednesday (26 Feb), my father called to inform us that she won't last more than 12 hours. We decided to go to the hospital together to pay our last visit during the evening whereby my sister would return from school. We didn't make it. She took her last breath at around 4 p.m.
All along, I did not visit her (except the Sunday's trip when she already don't recognise us) despite the fact that she hospitalised at NUH since the chinese new year and also my school (SOC) is within walking distance to the hospital. My father would ask me whether I want to visit her but i alway pushed it to another day cos I was tied down with the projects and tests. If my mum would have told me earlier (Don't ask me how she know. I'm not sure whether i can tell it here) that my grandma would pass away anytime after the lunar 15th day of first month passes,(ie after the chinese new year) i would have placed more priority on the visit.
My relationship with my grandma is not close. Imagine that I only visit my grandparents once a year. It's Er2 Xi2 Fu3 and Jia1 Po2 issue. I'm not going to talk about this. It would take another entire page. When i was very very young, I used to have sleepover at my grandparents' home, helpout and nap at their stall where they fried Chao2 Guo2 Tiao2 in ABC market for a living. My memory involving my father's side is quite limited. I guess it's the detachment which did not movtivate me to visit her frequently. *A sense of guilt*
Enough about the sad stuff. It has to be a thing of the past. Here's a recent update of me:
Getting all over excited about the voice conference with my friend on Saturday. I was totally surprised at the clarity of my friend's voice over the headphone. Even better than the phone's. The plus factor is that i can talk and be heard even when there's some distance away between the yellowing mic and my mouth. We can even share programs over the net without any delay and problems. It made our online project discussion far more pleasant even though we ended discussion at 5 a.m. sunday morning. (Btw, we used Microsoft Netmeeting.) Pardon us for getting keyed up over such a minor technology. We are a bunch of people who claim to to Computer Science undergraduates but with not much of techno savvy.
I hope this long blog can compensate for my frequent absense. My third phase of software engineering is coming up soon. I forecast that it will be weeks of sleepless night with intense programming and debugging. No 'fraid. I have signed up with phlogger which i can sms-blog to keep my blog alive. It would be up soon.
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